Friday 25 October 2019

Lakshmi, Alakshmi and Richard Nixon

Today is Dhanteras. First day of Diwali celebrations.

This day belongs to Goddess Lakshmi. Homes are cleaned and decorated with rangoli.

Lakshmi pujan is conducted in the evening to welcome home this goddess of wealth and prosperity.

However, Dhanteras is actually celebrated in honour of God Dhanvantari. He is the god who imparted wisdom of Ayurveda for mankind's well being and to help them get rid of the suffering of diseases. (Wikipedia University)

But being an investor and a bania, I'll stick with the Lakshmi version of this festival :).

As per our family ritual, we worship wealth of our house, symbolized by old silver and other coins handed over by our great great grand parents. Coins of Ganpati, Lakshmi...



This year, I had a closer look at our family's coins collection. Apart from worshiping gods, we have also been worshiping ...



King George VI... and other British India coins dating as back as 1925!

We have also been worshiping Gandhi ji for last 40-50 years...




and also coins from the princely state of Hyderabad... from the days when it was ruled by Nizam!! (My grandmother's family home is in Hyderabad)



There are whole bunch of coins in our family gullak, old paisa to naya paisa. Each generation has added their coins to it. We have been worshiping our family "wealth" of at least last 100 odd years or around 4-5 generations.



Times have changed, regimes have changed, faces on coins have changed. These coins are probably worthless now (though some may fetch antique value in today's money).

But we continue worshiping and inviting Lakshmi to our home each year in whatever form she takes.

There is a little story about Lakshmi and her sister Alakshmi that I would like to share.

Alakshmi is visualized as an owl seated beside Lakshmi, Alakshmi is a secret goddess, invisible to all. The only way to see her is to have Saraswati, goddess of knowledge and good sense by your side. But Lakshmi will never let Saraswati stay in the same house as her. She will go wherever there is Saraswati and kick her out, making room for Alakshmi.

Why does she do that, one wonders. But then one is told that Lakshmi is a whimsical goddess, she does not like to stay in one place too long. By kicking Saraswati out and by getting Alakshmi in, she ensures there is a fight in the house and when there is a fight, wealth invariably moves out of a house. But if Saraswati is in the house, good sense prevails, fights do not take place and Lakshmi is unable to move out.
Source: Devdutt Pattnaik https://devdutt.com/articles/the-rise-of-alakshmi/

That's the nature of wealth. It likes to flow and does not like to sit idle or does not like to be hoarded. It's not in our interest as well to hoard it.

Value of money is when it is exchanged.

So this Dhanteras, understand Lakshmi's nature. Let her flow. Spend money for the benefit of others. Invest money for the benefit of others. Don't let her sit around. We are nothing but trustees of whatever wealth we hold, for the brief time that we are here on earth.

Else, our grand kids will be left with such metal pieces. Or worse, in today's digital world, some useless algorithms..

Happy Dhanteras! May you stay blessed with HEALTH (first) and WEALTH.

The End...

If you are not bored, you can continue. Something for the investing nerds...

I will contradict a bit myself now.

I don't know the value of these coins today, but they have probably done their job of holding their value. Back then, coins represented value of their metal constituents. So a silver coin of 1 gram had equivalent value vs. say 10 coins of copper weighing 10 gms. This ratio was largely held with most of them linked to gold. I believe value of those metals still holds the same in today's money terms.

Then came currency notes which promised to pay the bearer some fixed amount of gold.

But that changed post 1971 when money or rather currency became fiat. Earlier, currency was backed by real gold or their value was at least linked to gold. Post US President Richard Nixon's announcement in 1971, currency was no longer money. (read this again)...

     Pre-Nixon $ was convertible into gold            Post Nixon, it is "Ram Bharose" (pun intended)



Money used to be decentralized for 5000 years of its existence i.e. no one told us the value of it nor anyone controlled supply of it.

Now it is centralized. Today a currency note or coin is used as money because government says it is money. One fine day, government can decide that X is not money, but Y is. And you have to live with that. You wealth is at the whims of government. Remember demonetisation?

But people have continued to treat currency as money.

Anyways, as we have seen above, times change, regimes change and what is considered as money can also change.

But one commodity has stood test of time for 5000 years.

That's Gold.

What has not changed is how people view gold as. Even during the time of demonetisation, gold was money. Even when government bans it, gold will remain a currency. (remember 70s movies smuggling in gold?)

Directly or indirectly, it is still considered as money. A hedge against money printing by government. Gold price grew by CAGR of 12% over last 20 years in INR terms. Bank credit growth (~money printing) has been around 13-14% during the same period!

In today's world of global uncertainties where central bankers and governments are doing stupid things and are being careless about money, it is prudent to have a reasonable portion of your family wealth, especially out of your cash and fixed income allocation, towards gold.

May be that's why gold buying is part of Dhanteras ritual. Our ancestors have probably seen many such foolish kings and governments.

May Lakshmi keep paying you visit...

Final The End...

Friday 31 May 2019

Bigg Boss






Lot of us has enjoyed this show... its a fun show.... just those 10 - 15 people.... trapped in a small world of their own... no outside contact .... just operating on a voice command of a guy whom they can't even see...

The show actually is an Indian version of Dutch show called Big Brother, which itself is based on George Orwell's classic novel called 1984.


                                                      

1984 is a story set in a dystopian world called Oceania, which is ruled by a "Party" that employ something called as "Thought Police" to persecute individualism and independent thinking.

The people of that country are under constant surveillance of Big Brother or the government....

Government controls everything... what people do, what they eat, how they should dress... what they see.. what they read... how they behave... and ultimately... what they think!

In a way... "Big Brother" is so deeply penetrated into individual's mind that it controls what he is and how he lives his life... 

Bigg Boss is a mickey mouse version of this world.... 

Situations are created for the contestants that triggers emotions within them... 

That's why on the show you have...


Romance.....


Laughter...




fun...


anger.... 



lots of anger....




and of course.... you also have....

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Sunny Leone...


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I also wanted to experience Bigg Boss.... and hence, sometime during February, I got myself into a similar situation...


I did Vipassana...


and this was my daily schedule for 10 days...



4.00 am  - Wake Up!

4.30 - 6.30 am - Meditation

6.30 - 8.00 am - Breakfast and Daily Chores

8.00 am - 11.00 am - Meditation

11.00 am - 1.00 pm - Lunch and Rest

1.00  - 5.00 pm - Meditation

5.00 - 6.00 pm - Tea and Fruits

6.00 - 7.00 pm - Meditation

7.00 - 8.15 pm - SN Goenka’s Discourse

8.30 - 9.00 pm - Meditation

9.30 pm - Lights off!


Meditation 10.5 hours.... 2 full meals... breakfast and lunch.... and just some fruits and tea in the evening.... that too only for first timers... repeaters got only lemon water in as their evening intake... and ... 1 hour of "entertainment" by SN Goenka ji

and ye... all this without uttering a word... Arya Maun.... no speaking... no gestures... no communication by any means with anybody else...

Just like Bigg Boss contestants are given tasks that bring out their inner self (for other's entertainment)... I was also given one simple task...

Observe my breath...

as it is... no mantras... no chanting... just observe it... simple ehhh....



Why did I did this??



To feel something like this...





But by the time my first day ended.... I actually felt something like this....

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By second and third day end... I was like...

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I was in constant pain... pain in my back... my legs.. my neck... I was cursing myself for getting into this.... I was wasting 9 office leaves for this!!!

I even calculated ... these 10 days are like 0.1% of my remaining life... and I am sitting here in pain.... doing nothing...



But I continued... and that's when I realized... a simple task of observing my own breath... even for 2-3 seconds at a stretch... even after practicing this for 3 days... was the most difficult task I have ever done...

The thoughts just kept coming automatically... I bloody have no control over it...

All these years... I felt I was the one who was doing the thinking... I am the master of my mind... but there I realized... I don't have any control over what I think...


Even when I was just sitting in one place.... observing my breath... I was getting all these emotions...

I sometimes had sadness... sometimes feared for my son... had anger about my roommate at Vipassana... anxious about what's happening with my stocks portfolio... sometimes I was cracking jokes in my head about people around...


And of course... like Big Boss.... 








there was Sunny Leone as well...


                                                 


And that's where I realised... there actually is a Bigg Boss within me as well... on automatic mode... constantly telling me how I should feel about a situation... what should I say... how should I behave...

Slowly and steadily I gained focus... and as I observed more... I started to experience all these sensations all over my body... itching, pain, heat, colt, tickling sensations... vibrations... some sensations I don't even have words to describe... but I experienced them... 

What was happening??

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Time for some theory...



We constantly use our 6 senses as an input to perceive the world around us and try to make sense of it.. 

Mind being what we would call as thinking or intuition or guess or a hunch...

When they are at work, I get sensations all over my body... and because these senses work constantly, I felt sensations constantly as well… 

Why don't we feel these sensations in our day to day life??

Because of Bigg Boss.... and Bigg Boss actually is a monkey...




a kind of monkey that constantly wants our attention... it constantly wants to jump from one branch to the other... one thought to the other... 

I tell it that I want to sit and observe the breath... that's why I am here for.... but the monkey comes and tells me... 

that guy farted!! 

Ain't that funny... let's crack a joke on that... you gotta tell that to your friends... know what... lets play a game... lets count how many people fart in next 15 mins... this is post lunch session... i am sure we will have a blast... pun intended... oh man I kill myself... 



And so went my one full session... doing what it pleased the monkey...


(By the way there were 12 farts in 15 mins... as I said... post lunch session...)

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Anyways... coming back to theory... these senses basically act as an input from things external to us...


We then perceive or feel a situation that we are in.. The neurotic connections in our brain processes this information and help us form an understanding or make a view or opinion about our current situation…

A thought arises followed by actions by way of speech or body language… ultimately impacting how we live… 

Most of the times… these things are controlled by monkey… Imagine… a monkey controlling how how we behave… how we act with others… 

But thats true.. That’s what happens…

                               

Monkey keeps on showing us something "interesting" … or something new… or something fun… something that we should be worried about… something that we should have done this way… something that we should do… "I should have told him blah blah... and shown him his place"...

Taking us either in the past or in the future… anywhere else, but HERE… in the present moment...

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And that’s what Vipassana made me experience…. What it is like to be here… NOW… in the present moment… The sensations I felt on my body… whatever thoughts that came to my mind are ANITYA or impermanent... and their only nature is to arise and fall… And for something whose nature is to be impermanent… why to react to it? Why to take it so seriously??? Why to let it impact how I live and behave??

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A Bad News and A Good News

Bad news is that the monkey ain't going anywhere... it will always stay with you..

But the good news is that there are ways to tame it... and each one us have an ability to detach that Bigg Boss voice from our head...

All that I discussed here is only good as intellectual talk... but freeing your mind from the voice of Bigg Boss is an experiential journey...

Just like how you got you can swim or cycle ... by actually doing it...

You can only get to know your Bigg Boss... and what it is like to detach those monkey thoughts and your actions... your life... by actually experiencing it on your own...

As Sri Sri Morpheous Baba has said...



Walk through the door... it's worth it...

Thank you...


Thursday 24 January 2019

Whose mind is it anyway


Whose Mind Is It Anyway!
Relax | Black and White Blobs | Robo Rats | Headbanging Caterpillar 

(read in sequence, please don't scroll down)


Before we begin, lets have a "thought experiment" :)
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Rest yourself. Relax. Be in a place where you are not disturbed.
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Now close your eyes and focus on your thoughts... just observe them... let them come and let them go... don't resist them... just be there for couple of mins and come back here...
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Please do, would be worth it
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So what did you experience? Where did your thoughts began? Where did they actually end up? Where all did you wander?
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Let's do something again... Go in the same space and...




DON'T THINK...



Yes... just stop thinking about anything. Be thoughtless and come back....

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Do it, I am waiting... :)




How was it?


If you were able to keep your mind away from a any thought.. you need not read any further. You have attained bliss :). Others, mere mortals, you may continue...

So what are these thoughts? Where do they come from?

What happens when we say we are thinking?

Do we control what we are going to think? How free are we when it comes to thinking?


"It may sound extremely complicated, but it is surprisingly easy to test this idea. Next time a thought pops up in your mind, stop and ask yourself: ‘Why did I think this particular thought? Did I decide a minute ago to think this thought, and only then did I think it? Or did it just arise in my mind, without my permission or instruction? If I am indeed the master of my thoughts and decisions, can I decide not to think about anything at all for the next sixty seconds?’Just try, and see what happens."
- Yuval Noah Harari in Homo Deus

This post is about how thoughts come to us and how they shape what we do. 

For this, I am relying on some books and articles that I have read, especially Sapiens, Homo Deus, Thing Fast and Slow, Power of Now, etc. along with certain other programs and experiences that I have gone through that has helped me look at my own thought patterns. Hence, strictly based on desktop research and hypotheses that I carry. These are just some musings that I am sharing.

Small Voice

We all have a small voice. Something that reside in our mind. This is probably the same voice that just asked "What small voice?"

Its a constant process whereby the biochemicals or electric signals in our brain are constantly evaluating the world around us, trying to give us an edge to survive. These signals just try to guess the situation that we are in by looking back in its "Experience Bank", trying to make a sense of it.

But what if certain situation is not in your experience bank?

Here's an example... can you tell what this is?




What do you see here??

Right now, your brain is probably going crazy and dipping into your experience bank and trying to make a sense of this picture... trying to guess what best these black and white blobs are are. This is what our mind does always, trying to look for a pattern from the past for a situation that we are in.

Kids don't know that they have to be careful while crossing the road or to be careful with hot stove cause they don't have any pattern concerning these life situations.

However, when they experience what its like touching a hot stove or when they learn from other's experience, like watching it on TV or parents' constant nagging about being careful on the road, they form a pattern of this bad experience or in other words form an "opinion".

Thus, as we grow up, our millions and trillions of experiences, conscious or unconscious, shape which of our neurons get fired when we are in a "similar" situation. A lot depends not on what you have seen in this world, but more on what the world has shown you.
(Did we actually choose to get goose bumps and feel proud when we see Indian flag fluttering high in mountains with the patriotic music running in the background?)

This automatic process of constantly assessing your life situation is that "small voice" that keeps on running in your head, constantly dictating how "you" should be reacting, behaving and feeling!

By the way, if your pattern seeking mind is still trying to guess what those black and white blobs were in the above picture.. it was ...

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"The world" has now shown you what those black and white blobs are. Now that its in your experience bank.. when you look at this picture or another random black and white patterns again...



the small voice will probably tell you its a snake .. and that you should feel in a way how you generally feel when you look at a snake picture... (even when this picture actually is not a snake!)

This is just a small example. But there are constant events that happen in our life whereby our brain neurons get fired in a certain way, shaping our thoughts and beliefs that drive our own behavior and decisions.


Decisions

Get present to what all you are doing right now... physically...

slouching on a chair?... biting nails?... scratching?... where are your hands?... how are your legs placed?

Did you decide to do all that?

We all have some small habit that keeps us comforted and lowers our anxiety.

Again, these are the small things. But do we do the same things when it comes to big decisions from our life? Do we have fixed patterns on how we decide onto things?

Whatever we decide to do, consciously or unconsciously, the same mechanism is at work. Decisions are nothing but predictions and best guesses, based on again, our experience bank.


"Predictions are basically the way your brain works. It’s business as usual for your brain. Predictions are the basis of every experience that you have. They are the basis of every action that you take." 
 - Lisa Feldman Barrett, Neuroscientist


It is this prediction business of mind that chooses emotions, decisions and how we react to situations for us. A lot of decisions and actions are already decided by the small voice even before we actually "think" of taking a decision... A lot of decisions about a person are already taken (or opinions formed) for a person even before we speak with them...

The small voice actually is faint voice. We can listen to it only faintly, that too when we actually sit down to not think at all. (remember "don't think anything" experiment above?). A vast magnitude of the small voice is hidden deep inside in our neural patterns, some of which are even primal, like hogging onto as much sweets as we can, whenever we find them.

So, based on above, do we control anything? Do we really have a free will..

Yuval Noah Harari has articulated the free will pretty well.
(caution - this may actually be a bit depressing thought :) )

"Today we can use brain scanners to predict people’s desires and decisions well before they are aware of them. In one kind of experiment, people are placed within a huge brain scanner, holding a switch in each hand. They are asked to press one of the two switches whenever they feel like it. Scientists observing neural activity in the brain can predict which switch the person will press well before the person actually does so, and even before the person is aware of their own intention. Neural events in the brain indicating the person’s decision begin from a few hundred milliseconds to a few seconds before the person is aware of this choice. The decision to press either the right or left switch certainly reflected the person’s choice. Yet it wasn’t a free choice. In fact, our belief in free will results from faulty logic. When a biochemical chain reaction makes me desire to press the right switch, I feel that I really want to press the right switch. And this is true. I really want to press it. Yet people erroneously jump to the conclusion that if I want to press it, I choose to want to. This is of course false. I don’t choose my desires. I only feel them, and act accordingly. 

For example, robo-rats could help detect survivors trapped under collapsed buildings, locate bombs and booby traps, and map underground tunnels and caves. Animal-welfare activists have voiced concern about the suffering such experiments inflict on the rats. Professor Sanjiv Talwar of the State University of New York, one of the leading robo-rat researchers, has dismissed these concerns, arguing that the rats actually enjoy the experiments. After all, explains Talwar, the rats ‘work for pleasure’ and when the electrodes stimulate the reward centre in their brain, ‘the rat feels Nirvana’. To the best of our understanding, the rat doesn’t feel that somebody else controls her, and she doesn’t feel that she is being coerced to do something against her will. When Professor Talwar presses the remote control, the rat wants to move to the left, which is why she moves to the left. When the professor presses another switch, the rat wants to climb a ladder, which is why she climbs the ladder. After all, the rat’s desires are nothing but a pattern of firing neurons. What does it matter whether the neurons are firing because they are stimulated by other neurons, or because they are stimulated by transplanted electrodes connected to Professor Talwar’s remote control? If you asked the rat about it, she might well have told you, ‘Sure I have free will! Look, I want to turn left – and I turn left. I want to climb a ladder – and I climb a ladder. Doesn’t that prove that I have free will?"



Time for some creepiness

Recently I came across a creepy TED talk by Ed Young (watch here). It is about discovery of certain parasites, animals and organisms that live on bodies and brains (yes brains!) of other animals and organisms and control their neural networks for their own benefits.

There are parasitic wasps that lay eggs in caterpillar's head. The eggs that hatch eventually go on to control caterpillars brain to defend their siblings, making caterpillar bang its head... a headbanging caterpillar... put on some rock music and see the below video..


There are examples of parasites that make crickets and grasshoppers drown in water (suicide mission!).

There is an example of Toxoplasma Gondii (pyaar se usse Toxo bulaate hai) which infect mammals. When Toxo infects rat or a mouse, it makes them into cat seeking missiles.

"If the infected rat smells the delightful odor of cat piss, it runs towards the source of the smell rather than the more sensible direction of away."

"This thing is a single cell. This has no nervous system. It has no consciousness. It doesn't even have a body. But it's manipulating a mammal? We are mammals. We are more intelligent than a mere rat to be sure, but our brains have the same basic structure, the same types of cells, the same chemicals running through them and the same parasites."


The idea that Ed Young wanted to present was that these "manipulations" are common in the world around us and there are chances that even we can be infected by such parasites considering our construct as a mammal is same as that of rats or a mouse.

"...opinion is divided as to whether the parasite is truly influencing our (humans) behavior. But given the widespread nature of such manipulations, it would be completely implausible for humans to be the only species that weren't similarly affected."


Whose mind is it anyway?

Mind or brain is nothing but a hardware that fires some biochemicals or electric pulses to make us happy or sad. It process its information much like a PC or a mobile phone on which you are reading this (A bit exaggeration, but you get the point).

Do we actually control how and when these neurons fire? Do we really choose how we behave? Do we really decide what we want? Or we are made to do something?

We don't!

Our thoughts, our actions are shaped by things external to us. So can we call it ours?

However, we have something which probably no other life form has. Something that can help us re-wire and create. But that's probably a discussion for some other post.

But what I'll do is just leave you with a quote from the movie Inception.

Image result for an idea is like a virus


Sources:
https://vialogue.wordpress.com/2018/01/03/ted-lisa-feldman-barrett-you-arent-at-the-mercy-of-your-emotions-your-brain-creates-them/

https://www.wbur.org/npr/470535665/can-we-fall-prey-to-hidden-parasites
various other web sources, books and articles.